Amazing Lord

God, thank you for your presence in my life. Thank you for your love. Thank you for giving me life. Let me never forget your kindness, even on the darkest days.

Let me never complain, or criticize others. Teach me how to love, teach me how to be humble and simple like you. Keep the light shining at my feet and give me hope for my future.

I am sorry when I doubt about your provision, I trust you, and I want to rely completely on your grace. I have nothing on this earth, so teach me how to slip past these things I call needs.

Show me your way to live.

God owes me a phone call

I would like to be writing this to God. But... I'm writing to myself. I know God is here, but I have not been able to speak to him in one-to-one conversation in a while. He blesses me and he shows me His love, but I miss his words.

I wish we would guide me once again, when my steps need to take new directions. I don't want to decide things just because they are the logic things to do. I want God to guide me and to bring me where He wants me to go.

I feel like my patience runs out sometimes. I want God to tell me whats up. Kinda like I'm loving the present and I don't want it to end. He has driven me to radical decisions about my life, and I think radical should continue... or not?

My heart is running loose (so to call it) and my feelings feel like they are going a little crazy. God needs to step in sometime soon and put in some order!

Planning long term is not working so well. I love whats happening now, and I love what I want to do... but I just can't manage to see how I will jump from now to the future.

I know I need to trust Him. But, I can't just wait around all my life... !!!!!!!

So, yes... that is what's going on.

God owes me a phone call... I think.

PS. my... feelings... are... a... mess... I... need... some... fresh... air...