God owes me a phone call

I would like to be writing this to God. But... I'm writing to myself. I know God is here, but I have not been able to speak to him in one-to-one conversation in a while. He blesses me and he shows me His love, but I miss his words.

I wish we would guide me once again, when my steps need to take new directions. I don't want to decide things just because they are the logic things to do. I want God to guide me and to bring me where He wants me to go.

I feel like my patience runs out sometimes. I want God to tell me whats up. Kinda like I'm loving the present and I don't want it to end. He has driven me to radical decisions about my life, and I think radical should continue... or not?

My heart is running loose (so to call it) and my feelings feel like they are going a little crazy. God needs to step in sometime soon and put in some order!

Planning long term is not working so well. I love whats happening now, and I love what I want to do... but I just can't manage to see how I will jump from now to the future.

I know I need to trust Him. But, I can't just wait around all my life... !!!!!!!

So, yes... that is what's going on.

God owes me a phone call... I think.

PS. my... feelings... are... a... mess... I... need... some... fresh... air...