SEMANA 1 - DIA 2

 SEMANA 1 - DIA 2

WARMUP

3 RONDAS

50 Single Unders

8 Side Plank Rotation por brazo

5 Gusanos

WOD

A 1) Alternating Bicep Curls

30Xl; 8-10 reps por brazo (16-20 reps totales); descanso 1 min x 3 sets

A2) Plank Tricep Kicks 

21Xl; 6-8 reps por brazo; descanso 2 min x 3 sets 

AMRAP x 15 min

10 Alternating Dumbbell Get Up Turkish (Liviano 20/15)

20 m Dumbbell Farmer Carry (Pesado)

8 Burpees

History repeats itself

I wrote this 3 years ago. I feel like I wrote it today. Only today I can't even say dear God. Today I can say... Dear something that I know is something but I don't know what:

Dear God,

It's hard to believe you are here when I can never see you or hear you. Sometimes I feel like you may be a lie. I love talking about you, hearing about you, but it seems like the picture is complete except you, I can't know you sometimes. I know I wouldn't be talking to you if i didn't think you were real, and my faith in you is no less because of all this.


The truth is that my yearning for you is so strong sometimes that I simply wish I could die right away to be close to you. I wish I could reach out to you and really touch you, just a little bit... I think that would make me much a better person.


I gave you, and continue giving you my entire life, because I know you know what to do with it better than I could ever know.


But I feel like I fail you, even when you say you love me in spite of all my mistakes. I feel I'm not worthy even if you say I am. I walk blindly towards you, but it's cold and dark, and I want to fall down and stop.


I worship you, it's my only true delight. I would shout my love to you. I yearn you so much.


Let me lie at your feet and rest. Let me cry on and on, let me fold my body so I can be so small, like a baby in your hand.


My breast wants to breathe deeply and sink into your peace, erase my mind, fill it with your colors.


I want to dance with creation, around you, for you.


Daily, every moment, I grab on to something. Your hand is what I need, to lift me.


Why do I cry when I think of you? Why do I want to hide my face?


I can almost reach you and suddenly I lose you, I fear you and run from you. I'm broken down.


Father, father, father... Call me your child.


There is a dark hole in my chest, I sink down into myself, I don't want to scream for help, not even to get pulled out. I want to cry, I want to hide.


People can't heal me. I can't heal myself, my hope is almost gone. But I remember You. You have the power, oven over the dark hole in my chest.


I'm weak in myself, I'm sad, I'm lonely. Not for people, not for conversations. I'm lonely in my dark hole. Blow your warm breath on my face.


I plead for your presence, in my life, in the world. I yearn for life and eagerness, for peace and change.


I don't want to move. Or talk. Or think. Only sorrows come to my mind. I feel so ungrateful of all you've given me.


I want to be away, someplace where nobody knows me, I want to be lost. I want to find you all over again.

Lost

I'm at this point again, where I am bitter, angry, sad, hurt and frustrated. All the circumstances around me make me feel trapped. The thing is that I'm not sure if it's the circumstances problem or if it's my own problem.

If I could slip away and forget everything I probably would feel the same.

I hate having that secret wish of slipping away. My day dream is slipping away. To someplace unknown, where money doesn't matter, where physical things don't matter. It really sounds like someone that would be suicidal. Obviously I'm not, not even close, but sometimes I think it would be nice to be able to disconnect from this tiring world and go away to someplace where I actually have energy to move and look beyond my own limited circumstances.

Now that I've gotten to a certain place in my life, where the future seems kind of mapped out for me, is when I don't want to look up and see what's ahead. Oh the thought of babies... oh... oh... I just think tired, fat, messy, loud, draining. It makes me sad to think this way, why should I think this way? It makes me such a bad person.

I think of having a house (30 years, yes 30... years of monthly slavery) I think of having a car (8 years of drain), credit cards, and so on... the future is just made of bills, work and work.

Dreams are simply impossible, unless the dream is having a house and car. Having to be a slave to bills cancels dreams. I hate this life. Who wants this kind of meaningless routine in their future?

Babies are more money, and they grow up to hate you anyway. They grow up to not even want to answer your phone calls.

And work. Work is so stupid. Your young so they drill you for being inexperienced. Then you grow old and they reject you for being old fashioned. That's terribly sad. A lifetime of this is what lays ahead of me.

At least I have love... wait... love? That's another matter.

Bittersweet

I guess change comes with stretching and a little pain. I guess life is never perfect. I guess when you are happy in one way you become unhappy in another.

I guess change makes masks come off and secrets become unveiled.

I guess God is the one who knows what I'm talking about, so God, here I am again.

Why is it that now that I know I follow you with all my heart and mind, is when I feel like people think I am doing otherwise?

Why is it that all the people who I have struggled to love are now showing their bloodthirsty mouths and sharp nails?

I'm just tired of looking everywhere for you again. I need you close. I can't adjust to change without you.

Sometimes when life is at its worst you seem so close. When life goes down to normal searching you becomes a challenge. Its hard, and to be honest, it seems like I can do things on my own, without you.

But then, all this is because of you. If I wouldn't care, I would just be a robot and avoid all the problems.

I guess sometimes I want more approval from people. It would be cool for everybody to be happy with my choices. At least my own mother.

I have never had her approval, so it shouldn't be such a big deal. I've done my stuff and proven my point. I've pushed forward and sooner or later she realizes I was right. But I just hate all this sneaky-fake-victim attitude.

She cares more about what it will look like to have a daughter like me than my salvation. At least that is what it looks like. I try to understand her, but I just can't. If she really really thinks she understands all this "salvation" theory, how can she be so worried about me? It just doesn't make sense.

I don't think any "church" is perfect. I won't ever find the perfect place, because its not about the place. I can go to the same church my whole life, but if I have never turned everything over to God and sincerely talked to him about my life... it doesn't work. Being the best church member, or being the best servant, or doing the most sacrifices... NOTHING is like being honest with God. I am not always honest with God. Sometimes God tells me in my heart to not do something and I go ahead and do it... but I know I need him, and I know I am complete when I come to him and turn everything over.

God I need you really bad. I need you to teach me what to do. I need you to guide me and to show me that you approve. In a personal way, please God. Be real right now.

Show me the way, because on my own I can mess up really bad.

I'm getting married

I'm getting married. To the one. The one I wanted to marry.

YOU

YOU are first Lord.
YOU give me a new everyday, YOU give me life, YOU give me possibilities.

YOU are creator. I would be less than nothing if YOU wouldn't have created me.

I am a sinner God. It seems so natural for me to run away from You when I sin. It takes heavy strength in my spirit to thrust itself towards You with all its might after I sin.

I need YOU so close to me. I am so weak and ignorant. I need YOU to fill me up.
I know YOU can fill me up. Don't let the world tell me that it's stupid to "over spiritualize" things. Although it is true sometimes, I won't fool myself. Your peace is real, Your presence is real.

_____________________

YOU COMPLETE ME. YOU ARE MINE, YOU ARE MY LOVE. THANK YOU.

UNANXIOUS AND UNINTIMIDATED

God speaks when we ask for His words. He takes me to places I would not get to alone. I ask for one thing, and He gives me something way better.

So... I asked God to teach me about trust today, but He decided to go on and teach me about STRENGTH. Weird, but He knows what He is doing. So this is what He taught me today:

Be brave, be strong. Don't give up.
Expect God to get here soon.

STRENGTH comes straight from God.

God's my strength, he's also my song, and now he's my salvation.

HEAR THE SHOUTS, HEAR THE TRIUMPH SONGS.

God will make it ALL PLAIN. (2 Timothy 2:7)

Just say yes or no. Just say what is true. (James 5:12)

And for me, as a WOMAN:

Cultivate inner beauty, the gentle, gracious kind that God delights in. (1 peter 3:4)

UNANXIOUS AND UNINTIMIDATED.

Facing it

I don't want a relationship, I don't want to give my heart to anyone, I don't want to get involved, I don't want temptations, I don't want distractions, I don't want doubts, I don't want wounds in my heart. I don't want to be on the market. I don't want any romanticism... ughhhh I don't!

That said, I feel relieved. And it's the truth.

I want to be alone, and happy, and free. Cause I can.

I want the right time to come, with whoever it is. I don't know who it is, or where.

All I know is that I want to be free from all this. I don't need it. I don't need it now.

I don't care about any man right now. I want friends, real friends. I'm sick of flirting and doubting and conspiring.

No more of that. No more. Ever.

I want to be free. I love it.

Many many months of this is what I want. For real.

I need silence again

I NEED YOU LORD!!!

Please speak to me, in the silence.

So much talking... I miss the silence in my soul.

Give me your tranquility.

Calm the waves, give me soft wind.

I need need need You. Please come.

Keep moving the pieces in my life, do your will. KEEP MY HEART.

My heart is yours Lord. Keep it. Keep me pure, keep me focused.

You are all I need.

compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline

Colossians 3:14-16

So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness. Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way.

Its You and its me

Lord I know this is about You and its about me... but it also involves all the people that surround me and interact with me everyday.

The way I communicate with you must become a habit to me, but it must also become a habit for me to share what you give me.

How can I be humble Lord? How can I share You without sounding proud or condescending? You are clear with me, how can I be clear with others and still transmit all Your love? Its such a challenge Lord.

Sometimes I think that the easiest way to be humble is to stay silent. But I can't stay silent anymore! Show me how to be like You, give me your love to share.

Lord I need You so bad right now, I need your embrace and your soothing words. Things happen so quickly that its hard to stop and listen to Your voice.

I don't like having to decide things that involve strong feelings in my heart. When my heart is only put on You, things are so obvious... But when my heart and my selfish feelings interfere I get confused and sometimes I don't know where to turn.

Give me YOU Lord!!! I ONLY want YOU! Help me focus. Thank you Jesus for everything, thank you for being my friend and my companion. Thank you for your example, thank you for listening to my prayers, thank you for your presence.

I love you Lord, I want to serve you my whole life, please take me where you want to take me and show me your way. Keep putting the right people in my way, keep showing me how to serve.

Give me love to share my Lord. Give me patience, give me wisdom.

I love you Lord. Forgive me. Guide me. Make me humble Lord.

Speak to my heart today.

Gossip

1 Peter 3:10-17

For,
"Whoever would love life
and see good days
must keep his tongue from evil
and his lips from deceitful speech.
He must turn from evil and do good;
he must seek peace and pursue it.
For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their prayer,
but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil."

Who is going to harm you if you are eager to do good? But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened." But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander. It is better, if it is God's will, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.


Dear Lord,

Today I was wondering how it is that so suddenly I became sensible to your voice and your wishes. It changes all the perspective of things.

Before I complained I could not hear you and I did not know what to do, and now I hear your voice and sometimes its such a challenge to obey.

I am sorry when you speak to me and I am slow to answer. I am sorry when you ask things of me and I ignore you. I am sorry that sometimes you are not my priority.

I must run away from gossip. It is my weakness. I do not want to talk about people Lord. I want to love them like you do.

Ephesians 4:29

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Ephesians 5:4

Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.

Next time I will avoid the situation, I will stop my tongue. Flood me with your grace and give me a new sheet.

Thank you for speaking into my heart. I want to be faithful. I know it is possible. Jesus you are King, you are God.

Give me your love, teach me how to love.

I need your grace.

God has words for every season

Matthew 10:10

You don't need a lot of equipment. You are the equipment, and all you need to keep that going is three meals a day.

Romans 12:11

Don't burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don't quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality.

1 Corinthians 15:58

Throw yourselves into the work of the Master, confident that nothing you do for him is a waste of time or effort.

2 Corinthians 10:18

"If you want to claim credit, claim it for God." What you say about yourself means nothing in God's work. It's what God says about you that makes the difference.

Sweet companion

Dear Lord,

Why would I ever want anything else besides your love? It is so complete, so fulfilling. I had a desire for so long, a desire to know you closely, like a companion, not only like a force or a white bearded man... I love that I've met you.

Thank you my dear Lord.

Thank you.

Thank you.

You complete me, I am worthy in your eyes. I don't have to earn your love. I don't have to fake. I don't have to show off. I don't have to be jealous, or sneaky, or manipulative.

Everything with you is so straight forward.

I want to be faithful to you first so I can be faithful to everyone else.

Stay with me, protect me, please don't leave me. I need you, you are the only one I can depend on, the only one I can give my heart to... and never take it back.

I love you!

I want, but you decide.

I want to live in Spain, I want to go to Africa, I want to see your face in Nicaragua.

I want to travel everywhere.

I want joy and I want energy.

I want a car.

I want an adventurous partner... some day.

That is my desire. But your will comes first.

Show me my true value in YOU

Saturate my life, fill every part of me with YOU.

Father, I come to You again, I need your reassuring voice and your steady grip. Show me my true value in you, fill me with your love.

Give me LOVE, healing love, forgiving love, tolerant love. Give me patience, all I have is in you LORD. Take my troubles, take my frustrations, refresh me. I have no place to hide Lord, only in you.

Give me my place. Give me wisdom. You constructed this, and you have brought me here, keep showing me every step to take, I promise I will follow.

I want to be faithful to you Father, and I want to be honest with myself. My heart is soft only for you Lord, give me wisdom to know the limits I need to put in every relationship in my life.

I want to obey, thank you for your soft hints, I want to be only yours. I want more of you.

Keep away all temptations, I am weak my Lord, hold my hand, be my light.

Thank you cause you are faithful, I know you love me, but I fail Lord. I need your strength.

TEACH ME TO TRUST YOU, WITH EVERYTHING. I KNOW YOU HAVE A PLAN. I WANT TO TRUST YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.

Protect me my dear God, blow your sweet breath over my beaten body, soul and heart.
What I am, I am in YOU, you give me my identity, and you love me.

All I want is your love and your approval.

YOU know what is going on. Guide me LORD, my LORD, my KING. Don't let me ever forget that you are ALIVE and close to me.

Give me your light. I know it's not over.

Give me JOY! I want to jump and laugh cause you LORD are the source of my happiness.

I love you.

MORE JOY, MORE FREEDOM, MORE OF YOU IN MY LIFE!

Man, God is so straight forward

Matthew 5

48"In a word, what I'm saying is, Grow up. You're kingdom subjects. Now live like it. Live out your God-created identity. Live generously and graciously toward others, the way God lives toward you."

1 Timothy 2

Since prayer is at the bottom of all this, what I want mostly is for men to pray—not shaking angry fists at enemies but raising holy hands to God. And I want women to get in there with the men in humility before God, not primping before a mirror or chasing the latest fashions but doing something beautiful for God and becoming beautiful doing it.

Joy

Joy!!!

My heart is full of joy, just because God is so real. He is full of mercy for me!

Only one thing on my mind, over all other things... Peace and energy to praise Him!

God stay close to me please!!!

Free

To be obedient God, and to listen to your guiding words. That is what I want.

What I am is in you, you give me my breath every day. You know what is best for my life.

I am free in You.

My heart is free in you.

Amazing Lord

God, thank you for your presence in my life. Thank you for your love. Thank you for giving me life. Let me never forget your kindness, even on the darkest days.

Let me never complain, or criticize others. Teach me how to love, teach me how to be humble and simple like you. Keep the light shining at my feet and give me hope for my future.

I am sorry when I doubt about your provision, I trust you, and I want to rely completely on your grace. I have nothing on this earth, so teach me how to slip past these things I call needs.

Show me your way to live.